It hurts a lot because in reality, he did break up with me and recently too. In the worst way… packing up his stuff and leaving while I was away, making me come back to an empty house… Then he got back with me. But I have that feeling you know… like… why is he back with me? Just to make me happy and not himself? Fuck. It just isn’t the same. He doesn’t get happy when he sees me. He doesn’t like to say those little things anymore. It hurts so bad. I just want to crawl into a hole. I knew I should have never fell for another guy again. Not after what happened last time. And all those feelings I thought I had forgotten and thought I would never feel again, are coming back to me so fast. They are hitting me like a train, and I can’t handle this. I don’t know what to do.