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I'm so tired and unmotivated and life is so boring and pointless and I don't wanna do anything with myself anymore. // Personal
I had a dream my boyfriend broke up with me.

It hurts a lot because in reality, he did break up with me and recently too. In the worst way… packing up his stuff and leaving while I was away, making me come back to an empty house… Then he got back with me. But I have that feeling you know… like… why is he back with me? Just to make me happy and not himself? Fuck. It just isn’t the same. He doesn’t get happy when he sees me. He doesn’t like to say those little things anymore. It hurts so bad. I just want to crawl into a hole. I knew I should have never fell for another guy again. Not after what happened last time. And all those feelings I thought I had forgotten and thought I would never feel again, are coming back to me so fast. They are hitting me like a train, and I can’t handle this. I don’t know what to do. 



Posted: 3 months ago
With 13 notes
  1. tonsilpaint said: :c if you aren’t happy you have to make a decision in order to be happy again. How long have you been together?
  2. -seawolf said: ah! this is so sad, and incredibly heartfelt. i hope you feel better soon <3
  3. niightwolf said: I would sit down and talk to him. If you think that he’s not happy with you, both of you can’t keep going on like this. I know it’s scary to live without him. But would you want to keep going on with doubt and confusion and hurt?
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